Blogging to bless and inspire

Today is the last day of the SITS Back2Blogging Event!!

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Today, our assignment is to answer the question: “Why Do You Blog?” I thought long and hard about it as its taken quite a while to find the style and voice that I wanted to express.  I didn't know if I had enough to say, whether others would be interested or even 'get me'.  I have seen so many blogs that I have found a blessing and very much aspire to make my blog a place where others want to come back again and again, like visiting an old friend. 

 

I blog to share my views, my inspirations, my life with the ups and downs thrown in and my love of God.  I have felt honoured to read what others have shared and shown a part of themselves in their words. I have found it difficult sometimes to get into the routine of blogging fitting it around life and family -  but I'm getting there! I hope that all who have stopped by and left their generous comments have taken away a new perspective or an interesting insight, and I'm thankful to all the new friends that I have made.

Inspiring Women

There are many women who have for many different reasons inspired me. The one that has had the most impact on who I am today is my mother – Mavis

Throughout our childhood she supported and cared for her husband and 3 children whilst working part-time to make ends meet, cooking and providing a secure home environment. She sacrificed her own happiness and made sure that her children never did without. Growing up I never really appreciated or saw all that she did and it is only now as a mother to a teenager myself that I understand how many sacrifices she made for us, how she was being fair when we thought she was being unfair, when she was thinking of our wellbeing and not trying to spoil our fun, and showed me how she loved me enough not to judge me or label me or put me down.

As an adult I now have a different relationship with her and do sometimes have to remind her that I am a ‘big woman’ with my own responsibilities, and ways of doing things, but to her, I will always be her child.

I am now her main carer, she developed dementia and has been living with it for about 8 years and it is now in the severe stage as she needs 24 hour care. The remarkable thing about the illness is that she developed a whole different personality.

From being quiet she became out going and lively, she has a wonderful sense of humour and an infectious laugh and loves to dance! She knows what she wants and will tell you she is quite capable of looking after herself; after all she brought up 3 children! She enjoys going out and thankfully is still mobile. Where ever she goes she leaves an impression on people and they say they wish they had a mum who at 86 years old was still so outgoing and lively.

We can often take for granted those loved ones that are around us and it’s only when circumstances change that we realised what we had or have. Though caring for her I have grown as a person, I have understanding of the condition, and making the most of each and every day. As an artist I can also see how art, creativity and constant interaction can improve the quality of life. I have been able to work with others who have the condition and seen the benefits of remaining active in their lives.

I try not to let anything worry me, making the most of every opportunity and situation, and see the beauty in the smallest of detail, I also hope I can be an inspiration and a blessing to others.

I put together a short video giving you a bit more information on Mavis. Do let me know what you think. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9SkClvTmlrw   also check out her riverdance attempt and forgive my laughing in the background and the messy front room! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8yWRRz00h9I&NR=1

As an added bonus, this week’s challenge is sponsored by Standards of Excellence, Westar Kitchen and Bath, and Florida Builder Appliances. One lucky winner gets to take home a new Electrolux washer and dryer set.

Dementia - Journey of a Carer

This post is part of the SITS Girls Back to Blogging Challenge – Day 3. It originally appeared on this blog in 2009.

I thought I knew all there was to know about dementia and what to do, but each day seems to bring new lessons and learning and insights that I hope to capture in the blog, but also as a means of unraveling my own misconceptions, guilt, joy, ahha moments, and look at a condition that so many people seem to be facing and effected by.

As a carer, my journey started in small ways that I wasn't even aware, but were excused by 'oh its just been misplaced' or 'shes just trying to make you feel bad', but very soon became cause for concern and action needing to be taken. Some areas have been sorted and taken care of quite easily but the social services and care system can be a mine field. Apart from the charities that provide advice there didn't seem to be one voice of information and help that didn't need unravelling, along side support for the carers.

We were assigned a social worker who had a mother who was going through the same thing, but rather than relating it felt as if to get a response or help my mother had to be totally isolated and a urgent danger to herself. There were too many departments to deal with, too many cut-backs and no one seem to take any notice of the carer and the experience and talk to us rather than talk at us.

Life for a carer is never the same, all the things you took for granted become a luxury, there are expectations as to what you can or should do. When your worn out from sleepness nights trying to convince the person that you are caring for that there aren't insects crawling on the floor or finding ways not to agree that there are insects but you will do something about what they think they can see, and then bit your tongue when they shout at you because you didn't do it properly - it can be hard going. Its vital and can be a welcome release to talk to someone else who is a carer.
Millions of carers and health professionals voice the same concern for more research on the condition and support for carers who are saving the Health Service both money and resources. I believe art and creativity can have an impact on their quality of life and currently looking into work being done internationally with creativity and how we can measure impact on mental health and well-being, and I am also working as an artist providing art sessions for the elderly with dementia. I regularly post on my YouTube Channel videos of working in your art journal to use it as a way to express feelings that you may have in a caring role.

I have learnt so much from those who participate in my art sessions who apart from the dementia and the way it manifests itself in their life are really lovely men and women with so much wisdom and experience. If you want to share your story, contribute or find out more information join my Arts in Health Network.

Sun, Sea, Sand and Change

I'm back after a much needed rest from the Caribbean.  Barbados to be exact. I had a great time with family and friends, and spending time touring the island and swimming most days. Coming back to UK I felt very motivated and felt my direction was clear.

As I tried to dive into my creative persuits I found

that I hit what seemed like a creative brick wall, I felt very reluctant to even consider being creative. It has been quite a tough time, a long road to travel, and I couldn't see any reason for it, it became a real valley experience trying to convince myself that this would pass. 

6 weeks later I have come through and understand that these times are necessary, and its been a time for clearing out, weeding and cutting out the old dead wood.  We all from time to time need to allow ourselves to reflect on our journey and see what changes need to be made, and we need to recognise that this season will pass - 'there is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven' Ecclesiastes 3:1.  I spent my time clearing out my clutter, eating healthier and reading (still a bit more to do) but making room will allow space for the new things in my life to start to take shape.  I would love to know how others have dealt with their creative blocks, so please do leave a comment.

Sunnier Climbs

Going to take a little break, some sun, sea and sand!

Direction

Life can take us in a variety of directions, but how will you know if its the right one?   As we step out in faith we know that we want to be a blessing, and be blessed.  When we learn to trust, step out of the boat and walk on water we will be amazed at all the things we can and will go on to do.

Get ready, there is a dream waiting to be lived through you!

I have been doing a series of poster type images with what I hope is encouraging words, quotes, statements.  I have started to really enjoy taking photographs and hope to do some digital work from Susan Tuttle's book  'Digital Expressions' .  I am delighting in looking at those things we take for granted in new light - enjoy!

How did these get here?

They arrived, the books that I promised that I wouldn't be ordering from Amazon,

I haven't cleared any space for them and as you can see from the last post haven't yet read all the books on my shelf.  When I was looking at all the treats on the site these two books spoke to me.

Having just completed Kelly Rae Roberts e course I thought I would hone my selling and marketing skills.  I am aware that I am spending rather a lot of time on the business side and as yet not actually put paint or anything else to paper for quite a while, but have just been jotting ideas down. I have already given myself a 'good talking to' about hiding behind the books and not producing anything, but the 'Creative and Inspirational Amanda' assures me that there will be some creative delights to share very soon :)

Books and more Books

I don't know about you but whilst I think Amazons 'one click' is a great idea it has its downside for a book shopaholic, if there is such a thing.  You can order a book when you want from the comfort of your kitchen and all the information regarding payment is already inputted, no hunting around for visa card or cash.  They have a great range of books by so many talented people. 

My latest phase is reading up as much information on other mixed media artists, there are so many wonderful new techniques to try I am not sure that my bank balance can really continue at this pace. 

I get a buzz of excitement from the moment I see a book that I like, to the opening of the box on delivery.  The satisfaction of looking up the books on their listings and reading the comments of other readers, and then you click to purchase, waiting in anticipation for the deliver - 1 day or so later you hear the knock on the door from the delivery person and your all excited likes Chistmas has come early. 

Only for it to fizzle out as you try and find a space on the bookshelf and you wonder when your really going to find the time to read this new gem.

I have promised myself that I won't be buying any more arts/crafts or creativity books till I have read the ones I have got........oh ok......unless I see a really must have publication that is screaming I want to come home with you....promise! :) 

 

I have listed some of the books that I really rate in the amazon side bar.  The books I just finished is -Taking Flight - Kelly Rae Roberts, I just completed her ecourse 'flying lessons' which was very good, learnt lots and in the process of putting it into action.  The other really good book is the 12 secrets of highly creative women by Gail McMeekin - great to hear the about the journey that others have taken, and really asks you some challenging questions that will help shape your creative life.  Definitely worth getting these two!  Let me know what your favourite read is..

Race for Life - Richmond - Images

Me and my sister Yvette, before we start out, getting ourselves in the right frame of mind prior to the event.  It was a very hot day, the sun was out and there were loads of people all with the same aim to finish the race in memory of their loved ones and friends.

There was a great atmosphere as every one got into position,  encouraged by other people of all ages, and sizes, the music played and our feet got into position. I really enjoyed the event and it was another example for me to step out of my comfort zone.We were given a medal on completion for our achievements and I have to once again thank all those who sponsored me for the event

Race for Life

Well the day is finally here, I'm taking part in the Cancer Research - Race for Life at Richmond Park today at 2pm.  The sun is up, its planned to be a great day, wonderful atmosphere. As with my creative life its all now about stepping out of my comfort zone. I had a target of £100 to raise but managed to raise so far £122.50 from generous friends and family, see my link which will accept donations until 14th August 2010 http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/amandatrought .  Will be showing some of the images at the event later on today.

Happy Fathers Day

Kenneth Lloyd Trought

1926 - 1992

Even though its been nearly 18 years since my father died I still miss him.  There were so many things I wanted him to share and to see.  In my 20's I didn't appreciate or have the maturity to understand why he did the things that he did, how hard it can be to bring up children and all the lessons I have learnt over the 14 years of my sons life. 

I would have loved him to share the many highs and lows that I have been though over the 18 years -  walk me down the aisle on my wedding day, to meet my son (his first grandchild) and laugh at his humour, to tell him how much I appreciated everything he tried to do, and how many of the sayings that he use to tell us as children I now say to my child -  "looks like you want to learn the hard way", "I wasn't born yesterday!" and many others.  I would like to show my father that I am following my creative dreams and most of all that I loved him. 

To all those fathers out there full of wisdom, knowledge and understanding - we want thank you for your sensitivity, your strength, your laughter and love.

 

Me as an 8 year old in my favourite top

Negativity/Insecurities - kick them to the curb!

At the beginning of your creative journey there is always something that seems more important than you spending quality time on your work and your development. I am half way through the Kelly Rae Roberts ecourse - Flying lesson and we are looking at the market places for your work. 

As I read through I was met with a barrage of fears and negative thoughts all designed to make you do a U-turn and dash your creative flight to the wayside as there is always something more important that you could be doing - like the hoovering, putting another wash in the machine, or a mountain of other things that often crop up when we are at the breakthrough stages. 

I decided not to ignore them but to write them all down, give my critic the space to voice its fear, and I came up with 2 A4 pages of all the reasons why I shouldn't be working on my art and creativity, but once the fears were voiced I could move on.

In the process I got myself a website and have been adding some of my work - You can see it HERE

Proverbs 3:5-6 says - Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths. When I was a child wasn't sure what I wanted to do, now I am older I am sure and its taken many years of reflecting, doubting, and going though to come out the other end with a lot of experience, knowledge, wisdom and a surety of how I want to express my creativity!

Like a child I nurture my inquiring mind, I am sensitive to my own insecurities and I support my growth. There will always be dishes and clothes to wash and hoovering to be done, at one stage or another you'll wonder what you did to receive so many blessings and be able to bless others with your work, but life is not a dress rehearsal and we have to live it to the full for we are not guaranteed tomorrow.

Check out some resources and book on Amazon that may help you with your creativity and direction.

Back on Track

I've been back in London now for 3 days now, been trying to catch up with all the emails,  the ecourse, the general day to day demands that tug at you.  Had a really good time at the conference in Norway (http://www.create.uwe.ac.uk/news.htm) , as well as taking in the lectures over the 4 days, I got to enjoy the peace that comes with being in your own space, learning more about what it is I want from my creative journey, and not having to cook for 4 days, but being pampered with the culinary delights from someone else's fair hands!

The conference was held in Gjovik, and there were researchers from all over the world, I was quite privileged to be among some of the brightest minds.  As well as work, there was play, we got a tour of the worlds largest underground auditorium built for the XII Winter Olympic games in 1994

We also had a tour of Oslo, and visited the The Vigeland Sculpture Park covering an area of 80 acres. The 212 sculptures are all modeled in full size by Gustav Vigeland, it was definitely a sight to see!

the viking museum

.....and many other places,  as well as some time on our own in Oslo.  All in all I had a great time.  It was great to get back to the family, my computer and my art materials!  Now I need to hit the ground running into the next adventure! I've got my eye on the many art retreats that are taking place in the US and some in Europe.  It would be great to get some feedback from any that you may have been to and enjoyed, so please comment.

Review of Delivering Happiness - a path to profits, passion, and purpose

Once I opened up the book to read, it joined the ranks of books that I didn't want to put down until I finished, that said it's one of those book that you can keep on dipping into, trying out the ideas and making changes to your life.  Delivering Happiness is not only for employers wanting to make a change in the work environment and to their customers, but it is for anyone who would like to make changes to their mindset and ultimately their lives.  It is written in a clear and humourous style.  Tony Hsieh reflects on his life, his mistakes and his successes in an open and honest way.

Overall, I thought the book gave great insite in to his journey, written so that it is easily accessible - telling his story and encouraging the reader to change at the same time by getting you to ask yourself some key questions.  It was also great to hear the views of his employees and the act of being open and transparent as an organisation, whilst sharing the vision behind the company organisational structure.  I definitely encourage everyone to read it, and take a look at their website -  http://www.deliveringhappinessbook.com   

When you walk with purpose you collide with destiny........ Bertice Berry

Winged Thoughts - I am an artist

From one of the pages of my journal I look at the way ideas are formed and how being that they are so delicate we have to use wisdom.  In the depths of my heart creative dreams are calling me to take notice.  With all the distractions its quite easy not to take notice of our ideas.  I explored the areas that I wanted to work in, things I wanted to try.  How many times were you told you couldn't do something or you shouldn't try something?  I've just recently started the Kelly Rae Roberts ecourse, and just been reading her blog entry on facing our fears. its amazing to look back on this now and think about the fears I had when I did this journal page and the growth thats come later on.  I have named and shamed the fears.

In 12 hours I will be winging my way to Gjovik in Norway for a 4 day conference - sharing and learning from others who come from all over Europe who have an interest in colour research.  I have been taking little steps that have led me to this point and as I face my insecurities, I'll soar like the eagle and I will be able to look down on the fears and insecurities. I know that I will come back enriched from the experience, and welcome the numerous experiences and blessings yet to come.

Delivering Happiness - Free Giveaway!

I just received my advance reading copy of Delivering Happiness by Tony Hsieh, CEO of Zappos.com to write a review.

In his first book, Zappos CEO Tony Hsieh shares the different lessons he has learned in business and life, from starting a worm farm to running a pizza business; through LinkExchange (acquired by Microsoft for $265 million), Zappos, and more. Tony shows how a very different kind of corporate culture is a powerful model for achieving success — and how by concentrating on the happiness of those around you, you can dramatically increase your own.  

If you would like to have an advance copy leave a comment and tell me what your definition of happiness is.  Your name will go into the prize draw.  The first name out of the bag at 5pm on Monday 24th May will win the book.  If you are a blogger and want to take part in the advance copy giveaway programme follow the link http://www.deliveringhappinessbook.com/contact/apply-for-an-advance-copy/

Hello Sunshine!

I am beginning to feel I can give myself permission to be creative again, after what seem like a long spell in the desert, and not feel that the washing, cooking, cleaning, caring, mothering, diy and the thousand and one other tasks have to take precident.  Its been a long road, I guess age and maturity has helped me see that to be the best that I can be for others, I need to cherish and be the best I can be for me!

Growth

I saw this  as I was walking to my art session with the elderly and it looked quite unusual as it appeared as if it were growing like a plant along the wall, but obviously its barbed wire. 

This got me to thinking how often we can feel that we are growing in a particular area or have learnt from a situation but we are restricted in our growth either because we have stopped seeing the possibilities or we have taken on board all of the negative that can often come our way and choke a great idea out of us.

We could also look at how we protect our ideas. Sometimes it's necessary to put a protective layer around it in its' early nurturing stages so that it doesn't get trampled and pulled apart and so the barbed wire might be useful in this type of situation.

When our ideas are nurtured and cared for they have plenty of time to grow and develop despite the environment.

Contemplation

Can't believe we are nearly a quarter of the way through the year.  Clocks go forward tonight and we loose an hour, I'm really looking forward to the lighter evenings.  So much has been going on its going to take a few posts to get up to speed.  I have been focussing on producing some paintings for an exhibition I am planning further down in the year.  I also have a lot of work that needs to be uploaded on to my website.  When you are self employed you have to be proficient in a number of areas.  I wanted to share with you a mini break I had in spain (marbella) in February. It was a lovely little break and allowed me much time to reflect and do some art work.  This was mainly because it rained all the time we were there and so for me it was ideal, I was forced to get my thoughts and images on paper.  There were a couple of hours on 2 of the days where we had some sunshine, I had really appreciated the time spent as we often can find a number of other things we must fill our time with and then moan about not having enough time.  I found it challenging at first as I am used to snatching the time.  I allowed myself to basque in the extra time and made sure that every day for the 4 days of the break I spent some time on me and working through some of the ideas that I had been working on - at the end of the day no one will give you the time, you have to take it for yourself.......