E is for Enough

There are distinct stages to mums illness where I’ve thought I can’t take this anymore - I have had enough,  I don’t want to do it.  These have been times where changes have occurred and what worked yesterday doesn't work today and I can't seem to say or do the right thing.  

What has maintained from the outset of the illness is mums enthusiasm and willingness to try and you know there is usually a good reason for her change in mood, you just have to work out what it could be.  More often than not walking away for a few moments and coming back as if there was never an issue and saying 'would you like a cup of tea?' changes her mood.

Sometimes though I have to sit in the feeling of it being enough because it's how I feel and we have to deal with these feelings. It is natural to feel this way and you mustn't feel guilty.  You have to recognise where it's time to ask for help and not try (as tempting as it may be) to carry the weight of it all on your shoulders.

Words so far....

A is for Alzheimer’s, B is for Behaviour, C is for Carer, D is for Dependant

These posts are part of the A-Z Challenge taking place during the month of April.  I have been sharing about my experience as a carer to a month with Dementia.  If you would like to know more join the Arts in Health Network and also check out my website for information on some of the work I have done with Creativity and Dementia.