Trials will come, but
then so will triumphs...
Life has its ups and downs, we have problems they are fixed
or sometimes not, we ask for help, we find a way, solutions present themselves
and sometimes we experience the grief of loss.
After losing my brother to cancer last year and my best
friend to a brain tumor three years ago, while continuing to look after my
mother with dementia I sometimes felt numb.
I still do feel numb at times, on
automatic pilot, not wanting to believe that they are gone. With the mother I thought was invincible and
who seems to be disappearing before me I find that I busy myself in practical
activities that ensures her health and well-being are taken care of.
I am still going through what seems like a trial I never
thought I would have to face, I have to learn to navigate the territory that
comes with grief and sadness and at unexpected times my thoughts are consumed
with the loss and the continued loss that dementia brings. But laughter exists,
mums playful spirit prevails and in the midst of it she can bring joy to the
situation.
As I deal with each day at a time I find comfort in being
grateful for the small things that can bring a smile, as do reminiscing and
sharing childhood antics. I celebrate
the gift of healing of what can seem like a broken heart that will come with
time.
What small thing can you find to be grateful for in the midst of whatever situation you are in right now?
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